Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
The clarity in life, isn't always such a clear path!
So much has gone on since my December 15 blog from the skies. Ole Delta Airlines granted me and other passengers with 'free' wifi as a holiday gift for our business with them.. Well, what these little assholes didn't inform us was that our personal email accounts, and other destinations we visited with ouR 'free passes' would be hacked. HA! Jerks! Well, I somehow finagled my way back into MY blog, and EMAIL, and stuck it to whom ever this man of cyber is. Loser. Anyway, I have gone through a whole heck of a lot in a matter of 1 month, met some amazing people, and learned some cool shit. I have had to take my own stupid advice, and pretty much tell myself, "I told you so!" Which sucks, by the way!!!
okay!! So! Having your heart broken in front of 100+ people is really stupid, and I do not recommend it to anyone, ever! In the matter of a few months, I saw myself conquering some of my dreams, and furthering my career with Matrix. It all came crumbling down in 2.5 seconds. Yeah, real cool. My Matrix Spread The Love Experience was a dream come true, and I am overwhelmed, still with everything that I was able to do. So unbelievable, and breathtaking with what I got to par take in. I will be forever grateful... Okay, so after the news broke of the ever so lucky final 6 chosen to travel with Matrix, I mentally picked myself up off of that cement floor, and very classily slid my way to the ladies room, and phoned my mother. I admit, I had an Oprah breakdown moment. Forgive me, but when someone wants something so bad, they really do picture themselves going all the way. GUILTY, I did! I don't think I have ever wanted something so bad in my life.
Yeah, so here is where I cue the motivating, loud music that I heard in my head when I was pushing out all of these previous blogs saying, 'no matter what happens, just stay positive!' Okay Brandis, positive. It's not so bad. Everything happens for a reason, and just because you're not chosen for one project, it most certainly doesn't mean that a better one is right around the corner. So many other fabulous opportunities await me. Trust! This is exactly what I have been talking about all along! YES!! Personal victory!! Right on. So here I stand, saying the same shizz. No matter what happens, there are ALWAYS going to be other wonderful things that suit you better than the one before. I met so many amazing people in New York, and made some freaking faboosh friends that I love dearly. I learned so much, and that's all that I could of ever asked for.
I am not going anywhere. I don't want to be on the top because honestly where is there to go from there? I have some comfortable boots, and I am ready to keep going. When I can do the three things that I love to do, everyday I will be able to rest content. I am here for the long run, so bring it on! I love love, and I won't stop til' I get everything I see myself having. Love is the answer.
okay!! So! Having your heart broken in front of 100+ people is really stupid, and I do not recommend it to anyone, ever! In the matter of a few months, I saw myself conquering some of my dreams, and furthering my career with Matrix. It all came crumbling down in 2.5 seconds. Yeah, real cool. My Matrix Spread The Love Experience was a dream come true, and I am overwhelmed, still with everything that I was able to do. So unbelievable, and breathtaking with what I got to par take in. I will be forever grateful... Okay, so after the news broke of the ever so lucky final 6 chosen to travel with Matrix, I mentally picked myself up off of that cement floor, and very classily slid my way to the ladies room, and phoned my mother. I admit, I had an Oprah breakdown moment. Forgive me, but when someone wants something so bad, they really do picture themselves going all the way. GUILTY, I did! I don't think I have ever wanted something so bad in my life.
Yeah, so here is where I cue the motivating, loud music that I heard in my head when I was pushing out all of these previous blogs saying, 'no matter what happens, just stay positive!' Okay Brandis, positive. It's not so bad. Everything happens for a reason, and just because you're not chosen for one project, it most certainly doesn't mean that a better one is right around the corner. So many other fabulous opportunities await me. Trust! This is exactly what I have been talking about all along! YES!! Personal victory!! Right on. So here I stand, saying the same shizz. No matter what happens, there are ALWAYS going to be other wonderful things that suit you better than the one before. I met so many amazing people in New York, and made some freaking faboosh friends that I love dearly. I learned so much, and that's all that I could of ever asked for.
I am not going anywhere. I don't want to be on the top because honestly where is there to go from there? I have some comfortable boots, and I am ready to keep going. When I can do the three things that I love to do, everyday I will be able to rest content. I am here for the long run, so bring it on! I love love, and I won't stop til' I get everything I see myself having. Love is the answer.
LOVE!
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