So disconnected: So sorry!

 I've said this so many times before to myself, and I am writing it, yet again. The clarity in life, isn't always so clear. and I find myself back at the very hated spot I loath seeing myself in. Blah. It's so certain that when we get into a routine, something or utterly unfortunate, someone bumps us off-track. (FOCUS!!!)

So, sub-consciously I have been evaluating why I step away from the things that I love the most. Such as writing, and photography and more importantly not putting all of my love and energy into my job. This is me promising myself, never again! :D

New projects!! Need some models!!

The clarity in life, isn't always such a clear path!

  So much has gone on since my December 15 blog from the skies. Ole Delta Airlines granted me and other passengers with 'free' wifi as a holiday gift for our business with them.. Well, what these little assholes didn't inform us was that our personal email accounts, and other destinations we visited with ouR 'free passes' would be hacked. HA! Jerks! Well, I somehow finagled my way back into MY blog, and EMAIL, and stuck it to whom ever this man of cyber is. Loser. Anyway, I have gone through a whole heck of a lot in a matter of 1 month, met some amazing people, and learned some cool shit. I have had to take my own stupid advice, and pretty much tell myself, "I told you so!" Which sucks, by the way!!!
  okay!! So! Having your heart broken in front of 100+ people is really stupid, and I do not recommend it to anyone, ever! In the matter of a few months, I saw myself conquering some of my dreams, and furthering my career with Matrix. It all came crumbling down in 2.5 seconds. Yeah, real cool. My Matrix Spread The Love Experience was a dream come true, and I am overwhelmed, still with everything that I was able to do. So unbelievable, and breathtaking with what I got to par take in. I will be forever grateful... Okay, so after the news broke of the ever so lucky final 6 chosen to travel with Matrix, I mentally picked myself up off of that cement floor, and very classily slid my way to the ladies room, and phoned my mother. I admit, I had an Oprah breakdown moment. Forgive me, but when someone wants something so bad, they really do picture themselves going all the way. GUILTY, I did!  I don't think I have ever wanted something so bad in my life.
 Yeah, so here is where I cue the motivating, loud music that I heard in my head when I was pushing out all of these previous blogs saying, 'no matter what happens, just stay positive!' Okay Brandis, positive. It's not so bad. Everything happens for a reason, and just because you're not chosen for one project, it most certainly doesn't mean that a better one is right around the corner. So many other fabulous opportunities await me. Trust! This is exactly what I have been talking about all along! YES!! Personal victory!! Right on. So here I stand, saying the same shizz. No matter what happens, there are ALWAYS going to be other wonderful things that suit you better than the one before. I met so many amazing people in New York, and made some freaking faboosh friends that I love dearly. I learned so much, and that's all that I could of ever asked for.
 I am not going anywhere. I don't want to be on the top because honestly where is there to go from there? I have some comfortable boots, and I am ready to keep going. When I can do the three things that I love to do, everyday I will be able to rest content. I am here for the long run, so bring it on! I love love, and I won't stop til' I get everything I see myself having.  Love is the answer.

LOVE!

LOVE to you from the skies...

Omg..... En routte to new York. In the air, blogging from the iTouch. Just want to really emphasize how incredible of an opportunity this is. Unreal, fabulous and beyond the stars. I am so anxious to see what the next 24 hours has to offer this 22 yr old gal from little ol pueblo Colorado. WHAT????? For real! Holy christmas, this is indeed the greatest Chritmas gift I could of ever asked for, even lucky enough to dream it.
One LOVE!

DESTINATION MOTIVATION

It's not that I want to be the best, I just want to be good.

It's not that I want to win, I just want to say i've tried my best.

It's not that I want to always be happy, I want to be the reason others are.

It's not that I want to fly, I just wanna jump and not worry how high.

It's not that I want to change, I just want to make a difference.

It's not that I want to be the first, I just don't want to be the last.

It's not that I want to be now, I just don't want to be known for my past....

There are struggles in every day. It's up to each one of us to find something positive out of it. Like someone said once, 'when life hands you lemons, make lemonade!' Certainly. But not everyone likes the sour-ness, right? yep. I find it lovely when people always see the good in situations, being bad, or just ordinarily okay. You know? Like, why do some just strive when everything is going good. Well, because it's easy to stay motivated when things are working out in our favor, I see that but think about how much stronger each of us would be if we kept "peddling" even when the wind is blowing against us. Hear me out... It's an instantaneous switch that shuts down mentally and physically when something negative happens to us... If we keep an 'i'm fabulous and awesome' mindset in our heads, we can get through anything.
DON'T MAKE EXCUSES, please!!!
GUILTY! I have certainly been known in the past to be captain excuses!! It's pathetic, I know, but everyone does it, or has done it. Which makes it that more, (forgive me) stupid!!! C'mon peeps!  If we want to make our dreams come true, we've gotta get out of bed first!! Exactly! That is so beautifully true, and I love it! The truth hurts sometimes, but most of the time, it's what we need. A swift kick in the butt if good for us once in a while.

Allow thing to motivate you in unsuspected places. Motivation is everywhere. Keep an open mind and open arms to welcome it. Nothing is weird, and beauty if endless. Create, create, create. but most importantly don't forget to love!

LOVE

Create it, Capture it, Write it....

  While having some much needed time with some co-workers tonight, I was reminded of why I am in love with what I do, and I am continually brought back to the infectious thought that it is all about love. My love for doing hair, my love for photography, and my love for writing. It all goes together consistently. Why do I love what I do? It's evidently because this what I was destined to do.
  Everyone goes to school to do what they think is going to interest, and make them the ideal amount of money. Some know from a very young age what they definitely want to do. To either fulfill their life long dream, or to buy their dream car. I never knew what profession I wanted to have, I just always knew what I wanted people to get out of it. Being happy, and taking something positive each time I visit with them. I know for certain now that I am one of the lucky ones. Not only for being able to do what I do, but being able to better myself repeatedly... If you want to succeed in the beauty industry, you have to be open to change because that's all BEAUTY does anymore. It changes, honey. All the time.
   I am going to keep learning, from when I wipe the sleep out my eyes, til' my nightly talks with the big guy, I am here to do big things, and WORK  honey, WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOVE!!!!!!!!!! 

Learning and Creating...

 We go through our lives always wishing that potentially everything had some sort of a shortcut. Like me for instance, I always wished that there was an easier way to clean my room, or to put my clothes away. Back then I would just shove everything under my bed, and all of my dirty and clean clothes under my bed. It only worked for a few hours, then My mom caught me. Now it's supposed to be easy. Just keep your room clean, and don't scatter stuff everywhere. In other instances, we hope that there was some way we could get our homework done quicker, or who we could pay to do it for us.
 Getting older, some of this still comes into play and I am now starting to realize that the work in it all, makes the end worth everything. I may not like doing something, but when I finally get it done, I feel like I have accomplished something. Even if it is just laundry. haha. 
 I am gearing up for my much anticipated New York journey in two weeks, and I can't help but be just a tad excited.. I talk about it all the time, everyone is probably annoyed with me talking about it, but I don't care. This is a HUGE opportunity for me, and I am hoping to go all the way!! I have my 50's shoot next weekend, and I am so excited. I have 5 models so far. YAY!! 

have I told ya'll that I love you today??

LOVE!

p.s. I love you!